One of “those” days! June 19, 2012

Today was one of “those” days for me with my kids. The hubby was working and for some reason the kids were hitting every possible button in me and it drove me to be a not very happy/nice mommy.

It was one of those days that, in turn, made me feel like a bad mom… and the lies just keep coming. One of those days where you feel like you are the only mom who feels this way and has these yucky, tough days. At what felt like my breaking point, it was just after lunch and FINALLY naptime! I got the kids all down, talked to my hubby, and jumped into my Bible study.

I’ve been having a hard time getting into the habit of spending time with God lately and finally this week I have been going through Jennifer Rothschild’s “Me, Myself, and Lies” study and it was EXTRA helpful today. God is just so awesome that way! It is a bad day and then He just brings me back to Him and His truth. The lies go away, or at least get swept under the rug for now (until He helps me conquer them).

What two qualities characterized Jesus in John 1:14-17? Grace and truth. Have I been able to hear the grace and truth from Him in my thoughts over the last several months? Well, it’s getting better but still a challenge. As Jennifer talks about in this study, I need to focus on the “what is” instead of the “what ifs” and “God cares about what you say to yourself because He cares about you.” What a great reminder that he cares about me, beyond what I can even imagine.

These are the scriptures that she pointed me to today to get rid of the lies from my “thought closet” and focus on these truths:

“Do not let kindness and truth leave you; Bind them around your neck. Write them on the tablet of your heart.” Prov 3:3

“For my mouth will utter truth; And wickedness is an abomination to my lips.” Prob 8:7

“A truthful witness gives honest testimony, but a false witness tells lies.” Prov 12:17, NIV

After I spent time in the Word and this study, I was looking on the internet somewhere and came across this blog/article titled “Sometimes I want to run away”. I could have written this article from my own thoughts and feelings today, just a few variations to her details. =)

Again, thank you Jesus for speaking to me and letting me know you are here with me. Without a doubt I felt inadequate and overwhelmed today and thankfully I stepped away and spent time alone (besides a little girl who was “resting” and needed to come upstairs to go potty instead of staying downstairs) with Him.

I copied this from the blog. It must be a poem/writing. It is so spot-on in so many ways to what I feel sometimes.  Another great reminder of why I do what I do and Jesus speaking to my heart saying "This is what I have called you to do, I am your reward, focus on Me."

• Continue On

by Roy Lessin

A woman once fretted over the usefulness of her life.

She feared she was wasting her potential being a devoted wife and mother.

She wondered if the time and energy she invested in her husband and children would make a difference.

At times, she got discouraged because so much of what she did seemed to go unnoticed and unappreciated. “Is it worth it?” she often questioned. “Is there something better that I could be doing with my time?”

It was during one of these moments that she heard the still small voice of her heavenly Father speak to her heart.

“You are a wife and mother because that is what I've called you to be. Much of what you do is hidden from the public eye. But I notice. Most of what you give is done without payment. But I am your reward.

Your husband cannot be the man I have called him to be without your support. Your influence upon him is greater than you think and more powerful than you will ever know. I bless him through your service and honor him through your love.

Your children are precious to Me. Even more precious than they are to you.

I have entrusted them to your care to raise them for Me. What you invest in them is an offering to Me. You may never be in the public spotlight. But your obedience shines as a bright light before Me.

Remember you are My servant. Do all to please Me.”

Continue On.

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men,

since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward.

It is the Lord Christ you are serving.

~Colossians 3:23,24 (NIV 1984)